Monday, February 2, 2009

Anthem by Leonard Cohen

Beauty and Truth have resonated at me lately from unexpected places and all directions. . .

"Anthem" By Leonard Cohen

The birds they sang
at the break of day
Start again
I heard them say
Don't dwell on what
has passed away
or what is yet to be.
Ah the wars they will
be fought again
The holy dove
She will be caught again
bought and sold
and bought again
the dove is never free.

Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack in everything
That's how the light gets in.

We asked for signs
the signs were sent:
the birth betrayed
the marriage spent
Yeah the widowhood
of every government --
signs for all to see.

I can't run no more
with that lawless crowd
while the killers in high places
say their prayers out loud.
But they've summoned, they've summoned up
a thundercloud
and they're going to hear from me.

Ring the bells that still can ring ...

You can add up the parts
but you won't have the sum
You can strike up the march,
there is no drum
Every heart, every heart
to love will come
but like a refugee.

Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack, a crack in everything
That's how the light gets in.

Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack, a crack in everything
That's how the light gets in.
That's how the light gets in.
That's how the light gets in.

6 comments:

doglover_427 said...

Oh, sorry Meredith! ISAT testing has fried my brain. I think I've used like 4 different areas of my brain I never even knew I had. Lmbo, so I haven't really don't anything lately and nothing excitig has happened just yet.

doglover_427 said...

Lol, thank you. I promise to write something as soon as something exciting happens.
O.o So what's your exscuse?

doglover_427 said...

For right now I am going to sit down and help my friend as best as possible. She doesn't feel well and I am going to be there for her.
What did you think I was referring to...?

doglover_427 said...

Lol yes you did and I understand why you mean. Sometimes it is worth all of the confusion but other times all it does is jumble you all up. lol

doglover_427 said...

Thank you for extending that towards me but there are reasons why I don't directly ask a person things. No offense towards either of you but maybe I really just don't want to talk to anybody, especially some one I have only known for 9 months, so I talk to God who I have known my whole life.

No of course I'm not talking about Nate's, in which case I am very sorry about that, it's Keith dear. They have done 3 parachute drops, we were the lay to survive by 3 YEARS. that's amazing! But he doesn't think we are successful. This isn't *our* fault. This outreach stuff should have been started years ago, I'm which case Keith should have gotten involved & said "Hey, you're doing great. You got people, good but let's try to get more..." blah blah blah & eventually get to the point where we start doing something.
My family has been offering our services since about a month after we came here. What would happen is they would talk about it, say they would bring it to the Leadership Team and never get back to us on it.

I did say 40 people. There was a reason I never said adults, lol. Children + adults = people

Okay I really don't get this "chartered" business because to tell you the truth *I* feel that it's ridiculous. I feel, and this is just me, that any church is a church of God and a church is the group of people who worship Him. You and I are a part of Streams of Hope.

Well, we aren't all going to the same church & I can guarantee that right now.

Yes people could choose not to come but why would they?I have seen people leave this church but I don't think it was us. They were in a difficult patch & apparently we could not help them.

Hmmm...well I don't agree with you there. God does allow us leeway. We can make decisions and we can screw up on those decisions. I don't understand what point I was getting at when I said some one was playing God, I am now replying back to you only after I took a nap so who knows.

Well, I love & adore this church. You have absolutely no clue how much it pains me to see anyone of these people having to leave here. The fact that I have to leave not by choice. It hurts, my friends have always said I worry too much, and I agree with them.

Well, yes it was a blessing to have you here. But it was suggested that we hire a retired pastor so we lose the parsonage. That's the financial cuts, and to tell you the truth we should have had more cutbacks wayyy before we came to the Mason's.

I love you dearly Meredith but we all knew that we would never have been able to keep you here with our budget. A retired pastor would be about $100 a week (okay add gas money and a few extra things say $150) then the rent fir Mason's building I don't remember how much that is so let's say $300. 4•150 = 600 + 300 = 900 now there expenses and other such things so bring it $1200. We now bring in that much money a month with a little more. With the outreach we are now just starting to do (I reiterate on how this should have been started years ago) we would have snowballed and we would have gotten more people.

Thank you Meredith but I have tried and ultimately not succeeded because by doing that I would have to admit to myself that at any time she could leave & not come back & I can't admit that to myself just yet.
She means so much more to me then I let on.
I am talking about Ms. C if that makes any sense at all. I have already told my dear friend Ms. P how wonderful I know she is.

I love you and Nate too, Meredith. You have no clue how hard it was to *not* cry when he started to turn red. The entire time I silently chanted "don't cry, don't cry, please don't cry" because if he did then I undoubtly would begin to cry also. I am one of those people (like the rest of my family) who are able to keep calm in tight situations. My father being a firefighter never worried about getting hurt anything, it was part of the job and he just focused on getting the fire out. My mother has always been one to take charge in a crisis. I think it's just in her nature.

So my mother's the leader.
My father's the go-getter/worker.
& I'm the supporter. Over the past 3 1/2 years I have received more phone calls from hurt friends then ever before I moved here. The one I remember most was my best friend when she had a horse that was dying and she couldn't do anything to help it. I asked her why call me? She said I don't know you're good at this stuff. It was then I realized that this is what I do. I support people.

I hope you understand that when a building has a heater in it and some one turns up the heat it requires the building to need to vent. My family and I have to stay strong because people have always relied on us & we can't let them down. I have taken it upon myself to stand with my parents because I don't want to bring them down.

I hope this clears up some things & the fact that I only half understand some of the things I wrote also. My mind works differently before and after I rest. All I know is what I feel and sometimes I can't trust that either.

I just have to say though I really do care about you Meredith and it's hard to know that you have to leave. Over the past few months we have grown to know each other better and I have happened to enjoy it ;)

doglover_427 said...

Alright, here's a question. Going on the "talking to the person I was referring to about how I feel" topic- How would I bring something like that up in a conversation? I only see her before and after church and this is something that should be done in person not over the phone.

This is one of those deep emotions I like sharing with the rest of the world minus the person I am actually thinking about, it's...complicated. lol, everything is complicated when you get to thinking about it.

I guess I'm scared really, of the outcome. I don't know why, it will probably be positive, but still, it's the younger, unknowing part of me that fears something. I just can't figure out what it is. I guess I'm just not sure of her reaction. Hm, see what happens when you get me started on such a deep topic? Lol I go on for ages.
So, any thoughts?