Showing posts with label everyday stuff. Show all posts
Showing posts with label everyday stuff. Show all posts

Saturday, July 19, 2008

oh fiddlesticks.

it's been such a long time and I don't know where to start.

so for now I'm not going to go back, just mention some highlights of my day!

-Made Chicken Tetrazini from scratch
-Made Macaroons from scratch (OH TO HAVE A KITCHEN BIG ENOUGH TO COOK IN!)
-I got on the elliptical even though maybe I'm not supposed to. . .
-Set an official HOPSTONE date GET READY BABY!!!
-Wrote a song in the car and scrambled up the stairs yelling at Nate "YOU NEED TO GET THE STUFF IN I HAVE TO RECORD A SONG BEFORE I FORGET IT!" Awww, I love an understanding hubby and not looking for a parking place

Thats about it. Sounds boring but everyday now seems to be a jumble of daily routines & getting this place in order. . .will it ever happen?

mere

Monday, January 28, 2008

life. . .

As I was driving home yesterday from my second winter retreat in a row, I went to adjust the heat and all of a sudden I felt like I was hit with a ton of bricks. No one else was going to tell me what it should feel like in the car. I was the only person that could control it. . .wow. Now I have had a car since I was 16 but something felt decidely different. A little tick on the clock from childhood to adulthood ticked to the right. It's little things like that which tell me I am not a child anymore. And it's scary.

Perhaps it was the contradiction of spending an entire weekend as a junior higher. Acting as silly as possible and loving every minute of it. Of getting in trouble as a leader for staying up too late because I was singing all the girls crazy songs about the boys they like! With my ski goggles on all the while. The girls decided I was "crunk" on Jesus.

It was so refreshing. I drank a load of Mountain Dew to keep my energy up and as we were all about to go to bed I started pacing the floor. Maddie our High School leader that came with asked what I was doing to which I replied "A pivotal moment has come. I can go to bed right now, or I can be really crazy for quite awhile, what should I do?" She thought crazy was the right way to go and so I did. I almost peed my pants numerous times.

And I get paid for that. . .

So while I struggle with growing up I get the blessing of hanging on a little longer in doing Youth Ministry.

godisgoodallthetime.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

It's been awhile. . .

Happy Birthday Jesus, Happy Birthday Mom, Happy Birthday Will & I, Happy New Year & Happy Birthday Lindsay Corinn!

I think that's all I've missed since I was on here last!

Saturday, November 3, 2007

ERGH. . . I have no discipline!!!

So, it has been awhile yet again. Hence my title. I am really praying for help in that area. I feel like I would really benefit from yoga once I knew how to do it myself and could be in meditation/prayer during it.

I have gotten a lot of reading done though. I really enjoy Madeleine L'Engle lately and want to become a L'Engle scholar like a Lewis scholar, but I don't think that it has been established yet. Nor do I believe she has gotten the credit due for the theologian that she is. She explores and states great theology (in my non-academic opinion) not only in her non-fiction works but also her so called "Children's Books".

I have a new goal in life to obtain all of her ever published works. This is 62.
So for those of you who are ever wondering what gift to bestow upon my person. . . there you go. Most of them are out of print so that is the difficulty or fun depending on how you would like to look at it.

I have also experienced death in a more real way than usual. First Sam Chatterton passed away, an extremely kind man who was a Grandfather to Nate (my husband) growing up, as well he considered Paula, my Mother in Law, a daughter. It was hard. Sam was at our wedding, and at most family functions. Definitely a father-figure that will be missed at these occasions. I suppose seeing anyone cry about their Grandpa is going to effect me for the rest of my life since my Grandpa's death has impacted me the most. But there was singing and joy along with tears. And quite a compliment was paid to Sam as almost everyone of his children spoke of how he was not a religious man, but a man who held dear his personal relationship with Christ. Quite an amazing tribute if you ask me. He knew what was important.

Then my Great Uncle Ron passed away. He was my Grandma Owens, sister Rae's husband. So no blood relation, and not necessarily a really really strong relationship between him and I. However, I have wonderful summer memories of when they would visit. He was extremely tall, with a Vincent Price quality and a staunch democrat, which my Mother always loved. For some reason when I got the call I started bawling. Perhaps for my Grandma going to console her sister, perhaps for my Great Aunt. Perhaps I needed to cry. For a human body gone from this realm and into a much greater one. . .

Thursday perhaps fittingly on All Saints Day late in the evening, I received word that a twenty-six year old young woman from our church had passed away. I assumed it was due to intricate medical problems she had dealt with in the past only to be confused as to why the church hadn't been praying for these problems in awhile, as I thought she had overcome them. Then I found out she had slipped off a chair, hit her head and broken her neck alone in her apartment. . .

I haven't quite come to terms or understanding with the situation. I like to say that God and I are working on it. I realize we are not meant to understand the ways and the whys and the intricacy of the pattern (that's a bit of the Madeleine talking :o) it is important to give credit where it is due!). My humanness wants so badly to understand what her younger brother and sister, a Junior in H.S. and a 7th grader clutching each other for dear life sobbing has to do with our makers divine plan.

So I will work on letting my humanness go and perhaps the part of me that is free from walls and obstacles and needing to see to believe will feel a sense of peace in the unknowing.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Back 2 Life, Back 2 Reality

Ahhhhhh.
Sometimes I love to just take a deep breath. To be acutely aware of my body and how it functions. I also love when you haven't really had any hydration for a bit and you can feel the water go down through your chest as it rehydrates you. It is a good feeling.

I'm still trying to figure out what to do with my time. I feel busy, but not busy enough.

I did a massive overhaul on the apartment yesterday. Pray, pray, pray, that if it is God's will we find someone to sublease our apartment. We really want to move to Evanston. We went and saw the apartments and they are so great! The kitchen even has room for our table which is amazing if you have seen the kitchen we have now.
So if it is to be, I would love it to be!

I am reading the whole Time Series by Madeline L'Engle right now. I started randomly but then decided to do it in honor of her passing. As of now I am on A Swiftly Tilting Planet which is the third installment. So timely, so universal. Her writing continues to amaze me. And it is really making me focus on not losing my ability to fantasize and imagine.

Speaking of fantasizing, Nate and I stayed up late last night to watch Pan's Labyrinth. AMAZING! I think everyone should see it. It is beautiful.

I need to get back to work. Tonight is my first Jr. High Girls Small Group. And for the kickoff, we are doing a big ice cream sundae party, where everyone brings their favorite topping and I provide the ice cream! I am excited to see how many will come!

mere

Friday, September 14, 2007

soul vs. self

I realized that my "self" was getting away with a lot in the past 24 hours. Wanting things or a specific thing for selfish reasons.

My soul knows better.
My soul knows me.
Might be because Jesus is there.

There is a book I am reading right now called "Traveling Mercies: Some thoughts on Faith" by Anne Lamott(Natalie I think you would like her a lot!).

It along with supplication from the Good Word (he he), has gotten me through the past couple of days.

Here is an excerpt that seemed to hit home today.

"I started to feel like a tired, wired little kid at a birthday party who has had way too much sugar, who is in all ways on overload, but still finds herself blindfolded and spun around for a game of pin-the-tail-on-the-donkey, and then pushed more or less in the direction of the all with the donkey on it. But I was so turned around, so lost and overwhelmed and stressed that I couldn't even remember where the wall with the donkey was- or even in what direction it might be found. So I couldn't take one step forward without there being a chance that I was actually walking farther away from it. And it took me a while to remember that, for me, the wall with the donkey on it is Jesus."

mere

Monday, September 10, 2007

backinthebloggingsaddle

So much has happened that I won't be able to get it all in.

Nate is at Garret now and absolutely loves it. I have to admit that I fall more and more in love with Evanston every time I visit. So prayers about our near future housing decisions would be greatly appreciated.

I am completely done at the store and I am excited for more free time! I am also excited to see how my former boss and I's relationship will develop without the issues of an employee-employer dynamic.

I finally got a streak in my hair. It might seem silly, but as far as things go with my physical appearance, I was always scared to do things that I wanted to do. Kinda goes along with the constant struggle of "what will people think?". So now I have a streak and a slightly asymetrical haircut! And I love it!

Worship went amazing yesterday as well, and for me it was a milestone. It was the first time I was up there doing worship with Nate for the sake of worship. So many distractions of other peoples expectations of worship and situations we had gone through with the church had always held me back. And I just let go and held on all at the same time.

I am so excited about my new job! Jr. High and High Schoolers bring you such an energy! (Which means I need to get in better shape! Guh)
Like I said before HUGE turnout. And I successfully got every single person to fill out an info sheet and got their picture. Quite a feat if you could have seen the mob!

I also look forward for free time to spend with friends. It is especially lovely to get together with Lindsay in the city and with Mackenzie for lunch.

I am going to continue to clean and organize our apartment. It never stops does it! Not when you have SO MUCH STUFF IN SUCH A SMALL SPACE!!!!!

I did purge a lot of junk this weekend though. Let's hope I can jus keep it up!

Pray for me and I will pray for you!
mere

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Thispastweekend&presentweekthusfar. . .

Ay yi yi!

Where does one begin?

Here is a whirlwind summary:
Friday-Natalie, Charity, Lindsay, Flight of the Conchords.

Saturday-Sidewalk Sale, Burnt Neck, The Works of Leonard Bernstein at Millenium Park,Walk to Navy Pier, Pee in the bushes (first time squatting outside in Chicago!), Pee all over back of skirt, walk behind everyone so they can't see I have peed all over the back of my skirt, Get to Navy Pier, eat nuts, watch fireworks, walk looooonnng way back to Redline, go to bed.

Sunday-Mission Trip Sunday, Lunch at the Onion Roll, Goodbye Natalie & Charity,Blueberry Iced Tea & Raisins, Garage Sale, Six Books for a Dollar, Goodbye Lindsay, The End of the Spear.

Monday-First day of work at Church!!!! 2nd day of no caffeine in the morning (eek), Had to get up at 6:00 a.m. to beat traffic, Turkey Stufing Sandwich Discovery!, Joy of seeing so many kids at VBS and Ready Set Go.

Tuesday-Work at the store, pretty good day for a Tuesday alone.Finished the HBO series CARNIVALE very sad it was ever cancelled :o(.

Wendesday-2nd day of work, OVERHAUL on the His & Her office Nate and I are sharing, Ready Set Go, Peanut Butter & Honey, Lots of Water, Lots of Peeing (in bathrooms).

Thursday. . . still to come!

Monday, July 16, 2007

When you're having fun. . .

It is always interesting to me how time can really fly by.
Cornerstone was three weeks ago Wednesday.
WHAT?

I'm sure I have said this already in my blog but being an adult just makes time fly by.

So here is the rest of my summer.

July 29th-Entire youth outing at Dana's Parent's Lake House.
August 1st-5th-Babysitting the Chattertons! :o)
August 5th-Nate preaches in Knoxville
August 12th-Nate preaches at RFPres
August 24-26-Praise Retreat
August 31st-Sept. 1st Bree's Wedding

So August is pretty full, but I am glad. We have been gone so much that the Summer hasn't felt utilized very much.

Things I want to do before Summer is over.
-Get to the beach (I plan to do this tomorrow! :o) )
-Get to the Museums
-See a movie in the Park
-Have more fun downtown
-Get to Six Flags
(can you believe Nate and I have never been to an amusement park together? What?!?)
-Get some sort of color on my pastey self, which the beach should help with.
-Go to some more local music things.

Alright I am off to dive into the world of high end retail.

(I never learned how to dive well, and that might explain a lot)

Thursday, July 12, 2007

mumbles. . .

So I realize that my last post might have seemed dramatic, which was not its intent. I was just being very honest about how I feel in this moment. And I had written it yesterday, and saved it afraid it was too crazy but I am crazy right now. And Lindsay's admittance of spiritual confusion also gave me courage.

In real world talk, I start at the church soon and then will only be working at the church starting September.

Nate starts school at the beginning of September too so it will be exciting for both of us.

We are also thinking of moving to a different apartment where we can just know or think we know we will be there until School is done. But alas, does one ever really know?

Lately I have been having lots of issues with other people. Why does it seem that as soon as you don't care what other people think, other people just get on your nerves? I have been doing a lot of talking to myself saying "God loves them just as much as you" so far this is working, but I don't know for how long. So pray for strength in regards to that.

I don't know what else to talk about because I am having a lot of trouble dealing with things seeming futile to me.

UGH!

until I think of something else to say. . .

p.s. when is it you need a place to crash Natalie? Because I would love it!

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Holding on to the mountain by my fingernails.

I have been groaning a lot lately. Not neccesarily audibly but this deep gutteral groaning that takes over your whole being because you are in mourning.



It is so odd to experience mourning when it isn't attached to anything physical. I am not mourning for a lost pet or the death of a grandparent or something ending.



I am mourning for the life I have lived up until now and the lack of groaning of screaming and crying out to a God who is the only thing that can make me whole.



The world has had me in it's grip for 23.5 years now and I am determined to release myself from its bondage.



Don't get me wrong I have been a Christian for as long as I can remember but I have reached a point that I wasn't even aware I needed to reach.



This may sound like crazy talk, and that is fine.



I would rather be insane with Christ than sane with anyone else.



I am not claiming any spiritual epiphany rather a new awareness of what it means to me to be a Christian and a new journey of figuring out what it entails.



Ok.

Back to some sort of reality.



attempting to stay in grace

mere

Monday, May 28, 2007

Oh you lazy Memorial Day. . .

So today did not turn out as planned.

Last night at Youth Group we were playing Kickball and Nate pulled a neck muscle. We were up most of the night with him in pain and then this morning he was having trouble movin his left side at all.

We were supposed to go to the Kooser's house for a picnic/cookout. Apparently it is this tradition that the whole church goes to. So it would have been a great chance to fellowship without the pressures of work. But poor Naters is still in so much pain. He is finally sleeping which I am thankful for, because it was too hard for him to get comfortable before now.

I did however get SIX loads of laundry done. Which lindsaycorinn can attest needed to happen.

Tomorrow I work but it is my only day of work for the week. WHAT? I know, I love work but this is going to be a nice little mini vacation.

This is my week.
Tuesday-Work from 11-7:30
Wednesday-Haircut, Get anything I need to get done for Will's Graduation which I hope to see a lot of people at!
Thursday-SPRAY TAN!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHH! I am getting more and more nervous! Then I have a voice lesson and we leave immediately for home. Which then Nate will meet the D.S. to discuss canidacy issues/scholarship money available! YEAH!
Friday-Mani's & Pedi's with Momma, decorating the house and actual Graduation.
Saturday-FIESTA WILL!
Sunday-Back to church!
My when you get older a week goes by so quick!
Check ya lata!

attempting to stay in grace
mere

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Always so much to say. . .

I really wish my brain could just be directly linked to this or some other recording device. Then I wouldn't lose so many of my "brilliant" thoughts in the time between thinking them and getting to this. Anyways, I meant to post the other day about an amazing blessing.
A lady had come into the store with her daughter who was graduating high school to find a dress for graduation. They found one that looked adorable on her and was the color required. Then the lady asked if I could hold it for a while because they had just bought her prom dress and couldn't afford this one right now. My heart broke and I wanted to be in a financial position to just give it to her. That is what I can't wait for about being even stable financially. The chance to do things like that. I told her I would do my best since we are really only supposed to hold until the end of the day. In between the time they could get it and their initial visit, Dina decided to mark them down, like the day before she came to get it! I was thrilled! When Elizabeth the mother came back and I told her she looked like she was going to cry and said what a blessing it was! So we got to talking and she and her daughter live alone and go to Willow Creek. It just felt so good that they were so excited about it and in a small way we helped them out.

Today is another alone day. :o(

Maybe something eventful will happen!

attempting to stay in grace

mere

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

So Jenny is working with me today. Currently she has run to get me coffee for the second time as I feel like the walking dead for some reason. I definetely got enough sleep, but it is definetely slow, so I feel like that adds to it.

So next week I get my hair cut and get my spray tan. The spray tan is something really silly that I wanted to do with part of my bonus, you stand there naked and someone sprays you. I am a little scared but I feel like it is worth a try and much more healthy than laying out. I am telling everyone because if I end up looking ridiculous, at least there can be some humor that comes out of it and thus joy for others. I will be sure to post before and afters.

I am also enjoying the new dog walker tremendously! His name is Dan and he is very mellow, was a creative writing major and just like minded on an art level. We started discussing how good Home Run Inn frozen pizza is, even though it is expensive for frozen pizza and then we both realized I probably shouldn't talk about "expensive" frozen pizza, when women are buying $300-400 items of clothing.

more later, Jenny is back with my COFFEE!

Monday, May 21, 2007

And off we go!

So today is my first day of work that begins the long stretch! I am just hoping we have a really good week. I always like to do well when Dina is out of town, so that she can feel assured the store is in good hands!

Last night was Youth Group, and it was energizing and draining all at the same time. We were playing chair-ball which is sort of like basketball but you have people standing on chairs at either end and the goal is to make the person for your team catch the ball. Mary Therese a girl with down syndrome was playing and everyone is always really good at paying attention to her and making sure she doesn't get hurt. However she definetely got slammed in the face and everything was put on hold for a few minutes. The leaders crowded around her and then I went over and said "Hey Mary Therese you are playing amazing you are just crazy out there!" And all of a sudden she was playing again. It's so funny how the mind works, depending what we choose to focus on.

So often I wish I could have Mary Therese's honesty and drive. If I could just focus on the positive, I wonder what I could accomplish. (With a lot of help from the J-Man of course!)

In other very exciting news Paul (the Youth Minister at Church) got in the job description for what my position would be. Which means things can just keep moving forward. The offer of this job was such a blessing, especially after the disappointment that was the Children's Museum (which I will write about at a later date).

I have a lot to get done with Will's graduation in two weeks and all. And I think Nate and I are going to stay put and paint the apartment which I am excited about. I am hoping maybe Dina will let us stay at her place while we do it, just to avoid the fumes, and her apartment is gorgoeous and right downtown so it would be a fun little escape!

If anything else crazy happens today I will update. . .so until then.

attempting to stay in grace

mere

Saturday, May 19, 2007

Back in the saddle

So, I must admit, I did one of these my freshman year of college but good ole Lindsay Corinn got me inspired again!

So, today I had a day off. Which was nice, but not really a day off, because I scheduled a voice lesson, and Nate had praise team rehearsal. However did just awake from a glorious two hour nap.

This next week I will pray for a lot of strenght and endurance because my boss is in Paris so I am working every single day until next Sunday. OOFTAH! But it is alwas nice to have the hours and to save money.

Tomorrow will be a long day to start the week too. We have church in the mrning, then I leave church early for work, then I leave work and go back to church for youth group.

I must admit I find myself being a little envious of Nate. He is all finished with his first year of seminary, and I have never been so proud of him! But it was my first realization that I don't get a summer break anymore. Welcome to the workforce! It is a little hard to accept. I want so badly to be able to pick up and go to Mama Helle's and just run around the yard and savor the simplicity and the lushness of God's Creation. That place feeds my soul and my brain and my heart. We are planning to go to Cornerston of course, but I don't know if we will make it there before that, and it saddens me. Nate will be down there every so often to help Uncle Rod and Grandpa work on the hunting lodge. It is a project that I am praying works out for all involved.

Also, call me a dork, but Nate and I are getting ready to purchase a tent for Cornerstone. YEP! After 23 year of doing without, I am going to make it there! I am sooooooooo excited! Not just for the shows (because I am already almost peeing my pants for Cool Hand Luke), but for the seminars too! Nate is really excited about a Zombie one, and there is a C.S. Lewis one that I am really looking forward too.

attempting to stay in grace

Mere